chilled

feeling much better now. needed to get all the crazies out of my head. while a lot of my feelings are the same, i'm dealing with them a lot better.

there's nothing that can be done about this whole situation at the present time, so it's best to just let it go for the time being. i want to keep my knight in my life one way or another.

things with the current love are okay. i feel a bit like a...jerk? liar? cheater? but, knight and i were pretty innocent, so i don't think i should be so hard on myself. but all the things that annoy me about him are really evident right now. i also hate that he's a smoker, but there's no curing that.

blah. well. not much else to say.

life goes on. c'est la vie.